When I started submitting the manuscript for Delivered Unto Lions to various agents and publishers, I was offering it as a work of fiction. I stressed that it had a factual basis, but I didn’t really give much clue as to the details of that factual basis. In fact, the book is very closely based on my own experience as child mental patient in the 1970s, but being aware of the stigma associated with mental health problems, I wanted to put some personal distance between me and what I had written. In taking this approach, I was living very cautiously. And as it happens, none of the agents or publishers I approached showed any interest in my book – with the exception of one publisher who was willing to put it out for an ‘author contribution’ just short of £10,000!
Yesterday afternoon (Sunday, 28 November 2010), I attended a Memorial Meeting celebrating the life of Edward Stanley Nattrass (1920-2010), who died suddenly on 21 October. The meeting was held at the local Friends’ Meeting House according to the Quaker tradition to which Stan belonged. Many of the people who spoke at the meeting had known Stan for decades. Although I had only known him for about three and a half years, he had been a good friend to me.
When I was exploring the possibility of becoming a Quaker myself (which I did, in due course), Stan was one of the people who particularly befriended me. He patiently answered all my questions, and posed quite a few of his own. I particularly enjoyed hearing some of his anecdotes about the various things he had done in his very full life.
As well as being a Quaker, Stan was very involved in various spheres of community life. He was chairman of the Bognor Regis Housing Trust (an organisation supporting the homeless), and an active member of both the Littlehampton Town Twinning Association and the local History Society. He was also a Labour Party campaigner and activist. And he was always very courageous in standing up for what he believed.
In recounting some of his experiences to me, Stan spoke with amusement and humility, telling stories about his involvement in protests, some of which took place in other countries in the face of sometimes very intimidating police and security forces. He also referred to the rather mischievous attitude he adopted towards certain authority figures when he took on the role of ‘McKenzie Friend’ in the early ’90s, assisting in the defence of individuals who refused to pay the controversial Community Charge (‘Poll Tax’).
Needless to say, not everyone would agree with Stan’s passionately held religious and political views, but no one would deny his courage in holding fast to his values.
Since Stan’s death, two well-loved Quaker phrases have been used over and over again in the tributes that have been paid to him: ‘Let your life speak’ and ‘Live adventurously’. Stan’s life certainly did speak, and, of course, he lived adventurously.
By contrast, my attitude when trying to get Delivered Unto Lions published was very guarded. But I discovered the mistake I was making when I submitted my manuscript to CheckPoint Press, Ireland. The editor at CheckPoint got back to me with two alternative offers. I could pay CheckPoint a three-figure sum to have my novel published as a fictional work, or I could come clean about the factual background and have it published as biography under a traditional ‘no fees’ contract. I chose the latter – the ‘no fees’ option (and avoidance of the ‘vanity publishing’ tag) was very persuasive!
With Delivered Unto Lions, I did not set out to live adventurously; I wanted to be cautious. But in the end I made the right choice (even if not necessarily for the right reasons). I took ‘ownership’ of the experience which had prompted my book, and allowed the novel come out supported by a new openness about my past. In doing this I hope I have made it possible for other people with similar histories to take ‘ownership’ of their experiences too.
The lesson I take from Stan Nattrass is that I shouldn’t have had to think twice about living adventurously. At least I got there in the end – but I won’t try to kid anyone that I intended it this way.
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Delivered Unto Lions by David Austin is published by CheckPoint Press.
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